its been a long looong time.....

geeee...like damn long never write blog liao...many many updates.....being in manchester have been fantastic so far...made loads of new friends....went travelling...went to spain, italy n france....drank so much i puked all over my fwen's bathroom...broke up wif lttle monkey...feel so shitty....but i still love manchester...

its e exams period now..still slacking away writing blog....im a bad star~~..=P...
sometimes i still wonder if i made e wrong choice...breaking up wif him..but..alas, its too late~...i've made e decision....dunno..but ever since i came to manchester...i've been like...on my own..wifout e protctive cover of my family, my fwens n e cute monkey....but i realise i actually kinda love it...my life have been revolving arn him for so long...realised i havent grown at all...i've lost track of who i really am....now tt i found who i am...im starting to love myself all over again...n i love it~~

i wanna do so much things...wanna learn so much things....wanna cherish my family n fwens so much more....i wanna do well...wanna get a good honors degree...i used to be just idling arn...waiting for him...but now...its my own life....and i love it...

pple say love is not someone u can live wif, but someone u cant live wifout....i havent been able to live wifout him...i still cant...i still look for him when im stressed...still wonder where he is if i havent seen him for days on e msn...i dun know what im gonna do if he shld ever disappear totally from my life...but i'll just have to live wif it....havent really dared to be in touch wif my feelings ever since i left manchester...even on e day i was leaving...i try so hard to ignore my heart..i never wanna cry again...never....in fact...my heart feels kinda stoned rite now...like so numb from everything....he still seems to be mine...seems like nothing has n will change...

i'll get over it...i know tt...i'm a very lucky gal...i've got everything a gal cld wish for...n things will get better...i know it...oh..and by the way...happy belated birthday to me!!....im 21~~!~~~!~!