fri got quite high......
texted robin told him i miss him....
i feel lousy now.....
hais...feel freaking lousy......
anyway..i texted him ask him to fetch me....
he say he at some gathering now...he not free.....
i gave up le...
yesterday onwards
totally gave up....
deleted his msn, friendster,phone num.....
guess its time to totally finally get over it n move on wif my life...

guess i havent mentioned it...but as it turns out the lily guy like me...gee....=\
so i lost a fwen......avoiding him now.....juz feel kinda awkward.....

hais....monkey..its really over le....=\
guess he'll never give me what i wan....wad i need......he went for a gathering....in e midst of it i texted him saying i miss him n stuff....i was abit high...i was going back on my own....i ask him to come n fetch me...he say he not free....he's at a gathering.....

so i went back myself...decided never to ever consider getting back together liao...cos no...he'll never change.....whether he's still wif me or he's not, whether he loves me or he doesn't....i dun care liao...cos he'll never put down whatever he's doing....juz for me.....

i'll never call him when i go home late in e night again...i used to believe tt if anything shld happen to me, he'll drop everything n rush over...but seriously...what if he's at a gathering again?..he wun b free leh...i rather call other pple tt will care lor.....

on friday nite...i sat the nightrider back alone...fell asleep on the bus...
lucky woke up in time to get down...then sit a cab back home....

robin'll never b e guy tt can make me happy...i need so much more than wad he can offer...there's pple that can run out in the middle of his office meeting....mind u not IA but real job....juz to quickly drive over and run across the road, juz to meet me....there're pple tt can come in the wee hours of the morning, come once i call n say i need cigs, come late at nite and wait for an hour or so....there're also pple tt can come when i need a fwen...reach in half n hours time, drive me over to e beach, and accompany me look at the stars.....robin will never do tt.....im not saying i need all these...im juz saying.....that i shld juz give up...cos robin....he'll never give up anything for me....not the hall....not his life...nothing....never feel impt to him.....who knows my feelings have juz been one sided.....

its ok...i dun care anymore.....

StArStAr~~*~