today my grandma got into icu...she look so weak...
her heartbeat stopped twice..but she got resucetated..dunno how to spell...
my fwen's sis once said something when their grandma passed away....
"our parents will be next"...

eek...it sounds scary...but ya....our parents aren't as young as they used to be anymore...
muz cherish them more....dun let them work so hard anymore.....

juz got home...left work halfway and cancelled the meeting with my prof juz to go hospital...damn shagged out...yesterday onli slept 1 hr....

tml morning going back to visit her...the doc say if she gets better, monday can go for heart bypass..but the odds are onli 50% for the heart bypass operation to b successful....

dunno why when i found out she was at ICU at work i juz burst out crying...so paiseh....she had 4 heart attacks in the morning....isn't 1 heart attack very dangerous, not to mention 4, esp at her age....

i havent been a good grand daughter.....used to worry my parents n grandma so much....juz started to be nicer to her, n suddenly juz like tt....lucky i went to visit her on tues..else i'll really regret it if anything happened...on tues she was still awake and energetic, asking the maid to buy 4D and writing out the number for the maid.....i was juz smiling at the scene of it at the side of the hospital bed...suddenly juz like tt....thot she getting better liao...everyone was saying she looked much stronger than monday...yet now she is depending on machines to live on...

i was at the waiting area today....everyone's eyes were red and wet.....then my cousin and her 2 baby sons appeared....then pple started smiling and playing with the baby...its like a very strong scene of nature enacting in front of my eyes.....i dun wan nature to happen...i wanna stay a kid forever, and my parents young and energetic, and my grandma still scolding me for being rebellous...i know i sound stupid n naive....but tts wad i want....i dun wan black eyed peas, i wan carpenters....i dun wan uni, i wan sec sch....=\

k la...i go slp liao...tml leaving at 9am..muz wake up early.....@_@.....so tired...*zzz~**

StArStAr~~*~